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童年生活在对神的恐惧之中

热度 2已有 11372 次阅读2012-11-12 22:04 |个人分类:神与鬼|系统分类:教育| totally, 恐惧, experience, childhood, church

原文http://www.answerology.com/index.aspx/question/3141282_Has-anyone-else-had-a-bad-childhood-experience-from-being-raised-in-a-religious-home-Just-me.html
Has anyone else had a bad childhood experience from being raised in a religious home? Just me?
I don't even know where to begin. This is such a loaded topic for me. The only way I can capture the gist of my childhood experience with the church is, "mentally and spiritually abusive". (Btw, this is totally irrelevant, but I know some of you will be wondering, I'm not gay. Also, my family is Baptist.) 

What kind of childhood is one where a kid has to be so paranoid to think that God is examining your every thought and motive, and judging whether or not it is a "good" or "bad" feeling or thought to have. I remember thinking that God could read every thought in my brain, and I used to feel so scared and insecure about my "Salvation" (Which, let me tell you, set me up for some serious sexual complexes that will last me my entire life). I used to lie awake at night, watching the headlights of passing cars through the plastic blinds, and being afraid that one of them wasn't a headlight, but was Jesus coming back to take my family away. I used to listen for trumpets following each headlight and then listen for my family's snoring to make sure I hadn't been "left behind". Someone told me that if I were to be "left behind" monsters would be coming down the street and killing people in their homes. Have you seen The Mist? That's what I was afraid would happen. 

I used to try to imagine what it would be like to feel the sensation of being burned to death, but forever. Never-ending pain. I had to question the validity of what I was being taught in order to maintain my sanity at a very young age. 

And I felt all of this as a heterosexual!!! I thank MY God everyday for not throwing the homosexual trip at me because I may have not made it, and I wouldn't be sitting here typing this to you right now. 

And thank GOD that I found the Hitchhiker's Guide in middle school to help me realize that the Christian perspective wasn't the only perspective, and to lighten the mood a little on the subject. 

I think all kids should have to read those books.

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回复 VANO 2012-11-12 22:34
这个英语文章虽然我看不懂,但是我是明白你想说什么的。 你找到的是和你有同样的感受,产生共鸣了,并希望大家多了解一下。

就算是还会出现其他同等文章,但是相信基督教。尊重基督教的人还是很多。

比如,FLG。就算我们再怎么说它是邪教,这个世界上虔诚的相信并遵从它的还是有。
我的朋友中就有深信FLG的人,他们还真是很好的人,工作家庭都很幸福,因为一个缘分他们接受了FLG。

我和他们在一起从来不提FLG的事情。 也不说FLG的 不好。这是他们的自由,尊重他们的信仰。仅此而已。
回复 神一鬼 2012-11-20 05:52
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对孩子宣传基督教的恶果:
当我们教育一个孩子说:他生来就是罪人,他的本性就是邪恶的时候,这是扭曲人性;
当我们教育一个孩子说:他的成就实际不是出于他,而是一个至高的神通过他而完成的时候,这是扭曲人性;
当我们教育一个孩子说:他的过错都是出于他自己罪恶的本性的时候,这是扭曲人性;
当我们教育一个孩子说 :他生命中最重要的是绝对地服从一个至高的权威的时候,这是扭曲人性;
当我们教育一个孩子说 :这个世界上的人只分为两种,一种进天堂,另一种进地狱的时候,这是扭曲人性;
当我们教育一个孩子说:对不能理解的东西盲目地相信甚至崇拜是一件美德时,这是扭曲人性;
当我们教育一个孩子说:为了取悦一个至高无上的权威而献上自己亲人的生命是一种美德的时候,这不是扭曲人性,
这已经是扼杀人性了!

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